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I cleaned my room today.
Not a very profound event.
At least, not without the context of what I cleaned it *of.*
The past year and a half has been extremely eventful for me, to say the least. I graduated college (sort of, the jury is still out on that one), got my own place, finally got my license, a car, and a steady job. On top of all of that, my roommate and I are getting bigger and bigger with Double Down Tattoos and Piercings (the grand opening of our studio and lounge in South Fallsburg is Sunday!).
So much growing up for me. So much love, so many positive emotions, so many new friends, so many incredible physical objects to appreciate and share and cherish in the present, and so many intangibly marvelous lessons, relationships, and self-esteem gains that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.
So much negativity. So much sadness. So much anger and shouting and lying and betrayal and hatred. From other people to me and from me to other people. Negativity is a two-way street and I walked up and down it many times over the past 18 months.
The physical manifestations of (most of) that negativity are now packed in garbage bags and outside of my room.
I cleaned my room today.
And now so much of it is just... empty space that was once occupied by a presence. Occupied by an overly negative emotional connection that took months of stalling and preparation and over-thinking for me to finally sever for good.
A rotting emotional 'corpse,' if you will. It made my home feel bad (and my roommate complained that it actually made my room *smell* bad at times hehe) and it is finally gone and I am moving on and not looking back anymore.
And all this empty space that I now get to fill with positive, happy things and positive, good people.
My roommate has been so very supportive of me. He helped me get over my last big breakup (before I went and wrote another novel about it anyways lol), he lent me money to get my adult life off of the ground, he's given me advice and a hand and jokes and a friendship and *time.* Time that I did not ever have in Jersey City or Alfred. Time that I did not have with Dana. Time that I did not have with *myself,* in my own head, with my own negativity. I was a physical, emotional, unreasonable train wreck of a man and I didn't even realize it because I was so busy trying to be a perfect superhero of a person that I forgot how to just be a *good* person at times. Ed helps me more and more to bring that out in myself every day. Just being a good, level-headed person.
And today he helped me clean my room.
He's a good guy. I think moving in with him is the one kick in the pants I so desperately needed and so vehemently resisted.
Yeah, there are negative, shitty, manipulative people out there. Some of them are women and some of them are men. [shrugs] They're allowed to be shitty people and they're allowed to get away relatively scot-free for their actions. The universe doesn't owe anyone a fair shake.
But Ed helped me to realize that it's not about what other people do at all. It's how *you* react and how *you* allow (or disallow) positivity or negativity into your own life. There's always going to be more toxic boyfriends and girlfriends. There's always going to be more broken friendships. There's always going to be more unreasonable authorities and manipulative peers. There's always going to be more financial instability, lost opportunities, shitty coincidences, and unfair challenges.
There's only ever going to be one *you.* Only one person is going to look back into your eyes when you stare into a mirror.
So make that person a happy, positive, good person.
Let the past go.
Clean your room.

[Coldplay - Charlie Brown]

Move on.

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RudyDieudonne
Rudy Jeremie-Fils Dieudonne
United States
I'm 21 years old as of 9-16-10. I am currently in my fourth year as a Sociology major at Alfred University. I spent the first year and a half of my college career at Alfred University as a Fine Arts major, but I eventually came to realize that art without computers isn't me. Alfred's Fine Arts curriculum is a lovely program, and it really is top-notch when it comes to the caliber of the work produced there, but it just wasn't my style. I'm a computer man. I love technology. I love being able to learn and see what new innovations are out there. Experimenting with the boundaries between what today's society sees as a beautiful piece and what would be dismissed as a heartless program has kept me awake more nights than I can even begin to count. For that reason I decided to transfer to RIT to become a Computer Science major for a year. Due to the lack of financial aid they could offer me there, though, I decided to transfer back to Alfred after doing three quarters of CS at RIT. It really is an amazing school, and I wish things had worked out better there, but since my return to Alfred, things have gotten really really good. Like, off the charts good. So Sociology is my thing now I suppose.
So, what else. Oh yes, inspiration. Back in high school, I took a graphic design class, and one of the assignments we were given was to create our own logo. This assignment ended up being the cornerstone for one of the biggest motifs in my artwork. Logo design is one of my specialties, and I feel pretty confident in saying that I know what makes a good logo. The logo I had designed during that class in high school became a ritual of sorts, with every year bringing a new logo, a new brand and overall theme for my artwork. Every birthday, for the past 6 birthdays, I made a new logo to stamp on my work. I hope to say more about what each one meant to me in my Artist's Statements.
Anyways. I don't know where this page will take me, I've heard that a lot of people have become pretty well known from the work they put here, and it would be everything I could ask for if my work bought me something even related to that recognition. Most of my stuff, up to this point, has been posted on my Facebook, and I was quite okay with the way it was there, but Facebook is obviously not optimized for sharing art, so I guess this is a step up from what I've come to see as my modus operandi for sharing my work.

We'll see.

Current Residence: 64 Waverly Place, Staten Island, NY 10304
Favourite photographer: Arianna Carini
Favourite style of art: Pencil sketches/Pen drawings/Anime
Operating System: Vista/7/Ubuntu
MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch 8GB
Favourite cartoon character: The cartoon character that got me started in art was none other than Goku from Dragonball Z.
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peatcher Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thx for the watch :)
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Junkey Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013
Happy birthday!
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RudyDieudonne Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013
Ahhhhh thank you!! It was an awesome day :D
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Junkey Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013
That's good to hear ^^
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Junkey Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013
Hey, thanks a lot for watching me ^^
The only problem is you'll probably have to wait for quite some time for something new from me xD
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RudyDieudonne Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Haha, only paying back a watch with a watch! I'm sure you'll update in time ;)
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Junkey Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013
Thanks for your patience! ^^
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dravego Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013   Photographer
Wow, really incredible. I have no words to say how much I love ur stuff. I am a great fan of your artwork. I may share a beautiful song to you in return. [link]
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RudyDieudonne Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013
Thank you so much!!
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ZandKfan4ever57 Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Happy anniversary of the Day you were born,
my DA friend! :XD:

Your art is amazing, and so are you! :iconhappybirthdaycakeplz:

It is an honor and privilege to remember you on your birthday! :nod:

:spotlight-left: Happy Birthday! :spotlight-right:

From Big Mama :granny:
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